Insomnia

To fear
dreaming or the
tapped process
remember – at all.
the feeling before
sleep? scratching
glass painless
fingernail tearing
through the quick
knuckle drop deep through
the mattress and
crusted bloody, hoary dirt
meets soaped, squeezed
skin passing
against the floor
meeting the warm-shell
Earth long forgotten
volcano imagery
hustles my genitals
waists sink and
breathing apparati rise
My body is an
awkward organ: heavier
than I remember
limbs bloating, a think apart
from the
thickening dream water,
leaves me